give up, move on...

sometimes people will need to give up on their dreams, and learn to deal with it later on. choices that we humans make are not necessarily correct. nobody can dictate which road we should travel. and with every choices made, there'll be risks and consequences. to weigh the pros and cons would be a difficult task. the same goes to the risks. how would i face those consequences? how would i face myself in the future?

regrets. there'll certainly be regrets later on. regret because i wouldn't do anything. regret because i couldn't take the risk. regret because i am who i am today. disappointing it may seem, i'm learning to let go of things. i am, sadly, giving up. i feel.. there is no hope for me. and the best i can be is someone who is by her side, but unable to wrap her in my arms.

this might be a hasty decision, but i can't see the point continuing. the sleepless nights, the commitment i'm putting in, the effort, the best personality i can possibly put up with, and the never ending trying to impress her. it seem.. so not me for now. should i be who i am, being comfortable with myself? or should i be taking care of her feelings, her needs, more than mine? this is a question i am unable to answer for now. but.. i am growing tired of all these things. i need a breather. i am sorry, Me.